Monday, July 18, 2011
Twenty plus years have passed since Joseph was sold into slavery by his brothers. They immediately land on the conclusion that this present hardship is a result of their past sin. I wonder if this is how the previous years were lived, too.
Reuben stands out to me, as he references his impotent attempt to salvage his brother's future. I wonder what thoughts decorated his mindscape those twenty years. How many 'If only, I had ... ' or 'I should have ... ' did he wrestle with? Reuben had tried to manipulate the evil the others planned; but he had not taken a firm, clear stand against it.
Lord God, I confess I have several 'If only's' and 'I shoulda's' in my history; but I know that You are Lord over my past, present and my future. I choose to lay those situations at the foot of Your cross as well as yield my theoretical thoughts to You. Guide me in wisdom, forgiveness and reconciliation that I may glorify You in every thought, word, action and interaction; even today. Strengthen me that I may confront evil directly and clearly, that I would be useful to You to rescue those whose souls are in distress. God, I fear You; I want to live Your way and make You famous in my life. Even today, Lord.